To Trust or To Be Afraid

Today was one of those days where God answered a prayer loud and clear.  This week I was dreading going to church because I knew I was going to have to read. It is always nerve wracking for me to read in front of church. Adding to my nerves was the fact that there is a hard of hearing guy who always asks the reader to speak louder no matter who they are.

So naturally I prayed about it. I prayed that I would get an easy, yet meaningful reading. This morning I open the program and find that the first reading is Pslam 46. The first reading was also to be read responsively, which meant I only had to read half of it, followed by a short second reading. Pslam 46 is what inspired Martin Luther to write my father's favorite hymn "A Mighty Fortress".  Being my fathers favorite hymn  it has always meant a great deal to me. Part of this psalm I have on a banner in my bathroom. Also, it speaks to God's strength and protection. Which is just what I needed.

Despite having just sang this wonderful hymn, I stood during the prayer of the day debating whether I could back out of reading or not. I felt tears coming on, and panic setting in. I did not want to read. I did not want to mess up. I could have easily turned to my parents, and shook my head and asked them to do it. I could have backed out. Until I remembered what I thought about on my drive home the night prior.

We all have two choices. To trust or to be afraid. 

Being on the nervous side I tend to lean toward the later. I am a constant worrier, and I tend to be afraid rather than trust. As I said in one of my previous posts, God has already won the war, so what is there to be afraid of? Of course, we should all be careful, but no matter what we do our time will come when our time comes, and when it is not our time it is not our time. God has a plan, so we should choose to trust more often. We should trust we are doing God's plan, especially when our worries are something small like reading in church. 

I choose to trust and you know what? It went perfect.  

I realize I should trust God more, and be less afraid of small worries.  I invite you to try doing the same.

~Breanna